Resolve

So, I'm a class facilitator for USU.  That means I control all of the equipment it takes to receive or broadcast classes between multiple USU sites throughout Utah.  This week is the beginning of a new semester so the typically short first-night-syllabus class sessions are going on.  I'm scheduled to facilitate two classes tonight and the first finished over an hour early so I'm left to otherwise occupy my time until the next class begins.  If this keeps happening I am guaranteed the ability to keep up with my resolve to blog more this year!  Well, at least for the duration of the semester =0)

Since the beginning of the new year I've jotted down a few things I'd like to accomplish in 2013.  My list is at home but since I have the time to expound now I'm going to do what I can to extract them from my memory.  I may or may not end up adding to this post after I get home and see my actual list.  It's only the 9th day of the year, give me a break!  Besides, that's what lists are for.  To allow the space in my brain to be occupied with other things.

I already mentioned my resolve to blog more.  Even the small things. So much happens with our little family and if I don't document it who will?  I used to sit down on Sunday nights and blog about the week and that really helped me keep up, but Tyson and I have also resolved to stay away from technology on Sundays so I'll have to figure something else out.  I will figure something else out!  This year is going to be a good blogging year, you wait and see!

I want to get back to reading.  Remember in 2011 when I was reading like 2 or 3 books a month?  And then Tyson had surgery and my "me time" became obsolete and by the time I had some "me time" back I had lost all reading momentum.  But it's back!  I want to dig in to some good books so if you have any recommendations I'd like to hear them!

I want to give more time to others.  I want to make more time for others.  I'm a fast-paced person and when I'm not fast-paced I'm even faster paced.  With that fast pace comes rampant thoughts and impulsive decisions and little silence and even less time.  I want to slow down and pay more attention to those around me.  Focus on them.  Realize that the things I think and feel are not always that important.  I am surrounded by wonderful people and I want to be influenced by them.  How can that happen if I don't make time for them?

I want not to give in to obligation.  I've kind of come to despise obligation, actually.  I realize there is good, responsible obligation and that's not the obligation I'm talking about.  The obligation I'm referring to here is the obligation that draws from a hollow heart.  The type that motivates me to act solely out of expectation.  The type that makes me stress and worry because of what others think.  This year, I want to act because I want to act.  I want to give because I want to give.  I want to love because I want to love.  I want my actions to be backed with concern, compassion, and desire.  No more of that hollow stuff.  And to those I interact with- -please do the same for me.  Don't do things for me because you feel obligated.  Don't tell me things because you feel obligated.  I want my relationships to be fulfilling, two-sided and real.

There may be something I'm missing but since it's not coming to me just now, I think I'll take the last 15 minutes of my break and indulge in some Aggie Station fries.  This baby inside me is hungry =0)