Last week schmasht week.
Talk about being run ragged. Eating on the go, showerless mornings, lead-foot driving, never a moment to sit down. I do it to myself so I have no right to complain. Call me Busy Body. Strength? Unfortunate Weakness? It depends which way you look at it.
Strength: 40 shower liners washed and rehung, 30+ mattress covers replaced, 20 drip pan sets replaced, on-site laundry room scrubbed and mopped.
Unfortunate Weakness: Impatience with a cranky toddler who just wants his momma.
Strength: House kept clean, laundry done, grocery shopping finished, errands complete.
Unfortunate Weakness: Sad toddler strapped in the van spending little quality time with his momma.
Strength: Friend's baby shower planned for, hosted, successful.
Unfortunate Weakness: Self-entertained toddler with little attention while momma focuses on baby shower preparation.
Strength: Keeping up with Summer Citizen requests (i.e. maintenance, room rearranging, internet connecting, TV programming).
Unfortunate Weakness: Free-spirited toddler restrained from running as he pleases and forced to folllow momma.
How sad! All of this written down is much more depressing than when it's running through my head. Between being a wife, mother, and apartment manager, it obviously never ends. There is always something to do, and I'm fortunate to say I rarely struggle with finding motivation but I do struggle with mediation. My to-do list fuels me. Seriously, I can feel a surge run through my body when I see my list of things to accomplish. Great, right? It is, if I could just prioritize my motivation. My family relationships struggle when I go, go, go. I need to take more time for my husband and especially my child. I need to let the house be a mess for a day. I need to decide which errands are urgent and which errands can wait. I need to wait to do the laundry while Teryn is sleeping. I need to do so much more than I'm doing for my family. I need to please them before I please the world.
My to-do list is going to be much different today.
Did you ever know there would be so much guilt in parenting? It's good because it reminds us what our priorities are but geez! I remember my sister Heidi always telling me, long before I had kids, to let my house be messy, and let things go un-done, and spend time with my kids instead. She wishes she had done more of that when hers were still little. I didn't understand til I had my own. It's harder than it looks. Good luck! We'll figure it out one of these days.
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